Not a Scab

While I think the whole ‘Day Without Gays’ is a fun idea it really doesn't work for me. Facing a deadline it would only get me behind and negatively impact the team. Disappearing for a day right now would be more selfish than awareness raising. Instead of a passive protester, every day I am an active reminder by being out at work and unafraid of answering questions or making observations.

Saucy

A data relationship management bug is causing my previously-working code to break. Checked with Russ about it in the morning then he wandered by this afternoon:

Russ: Was wondering if I can help you with your Relationships problem.
Sean: NO. But thanks.
Russ: Well I thought…
Sean: I've been dating men for over thirteen years now. It's great that you're married and family life suits you. And while I appreciate the concern, I really don't know what you can do.
Russ: …

All that rolled off my tongue so smoothly it was amusing to watch his stunned face processing. Earlier in the day my cubicle neighbor got observant via IM:

Jeff : odd so very odd . . . how is it you actually function in this world?
Sean: DENIAL, ALCOHOL, AND OCCASIONAL SEX WITH OTHERS.
Jeff : and I am guessing the alcohol helps with the others?
Sean: REQUIRED

Maybe I should go drinking tonight. After all, it is the 75^th anniversary of the end of prohibition.

Make Our Clothes, Fix Our Hair

Wow. No one can escape Prop 8 — The Musical as it works social viral magic, from Facebook to MSNBC. Sure it's a bit late yet the humor and awareness helps. Maybe the next electoral hate cycle will enable collection of some gay marriage/divorce litigation dollars…

Merry XMas to Me

Britney Spears with The Pussycat Dolls On Tour

Britney Spears will make a highly anticipated return to the stage for her 2009 Circus World Tour. Following on the excitement of the just released sixth studio album, Circus, Spears will kick off the tour in New Orleans with The Pussycat Dolls.

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First Few Dominos

In my ignorance I continue to be amazed at how the Dow is such an accurate leading indicator. Sort of watching with a morbid fascination at what companies are going to fall. Was surprised to see Circuit City filing Chapter 11. The retail devastation this Season will be telling.

A Win, Despite Irrationality

Relived both that the election is over and that McCain/Palin were so soundly defeated. It was amazing the types of straws Republicans were grasping at and how well they worked. The wife of my guild leader was making this incredible statement: “10 girls have died from that HPV vaccination. Obama will kill my girls if he's elected and his universal health care goes into place.” *rolls eyes* It will be interesting to see what the democrats achieve with Obama and cloture power in the Senate.

Back Home

New York was fun. There were a myriad of things to see and do. Catching what I could was exhausting without even realizing it until the train ride home. AndrewFashion was a great tour guide and often kept up better than I did.

I was surprised that, though it shows it's age, New York was surprisingly clean. Watching Night Court repeatedly had formed a harsh opinion that is best summarized in part 3 of Danny Got His Gun when Dan Fielding answers Kista's question, “Are the people nice there?” by saying, “Sure. Just don't make eye contact.” Yet I didn't find this the case when exposed to much humanity in the subways or on the streets downtown.

Yet for all it has to offer and how accessible it is, it still has the pall of the big city. The reliance on public transport can be frustrating. It's big to the point of being overwhelming and impersonal. And I started to see what Ed Shepp described as being “hard” about making a living there. Moving there would have been a mistake. While it definitely suits Nic's persona I am saddened to think how it's going to change AF. Yet that's not my concern.

The hardest part for me was how AF has moved on emotionally along with physically. I caught glimpses of it before he left yet it was more clear now that he's settled. Having to grieve the loss of intimate connection for yet another special man is always fun. Was pretty torturous containing feelings once reciprocated by the man you're sleeping next to. Wanting to reach out… hold, touch, caress. Yet when you do, even fleetingly, it's met with tolerance instead of pleasure. Words are quite incapable of describing this pain.

Will that stop me? Of course not. I hadn't planned on doing Nano this year because I know the expansion will consume me when it's released in the middle of the month. Yet I seem to have a lot of writing to do all of a sudden. *smirk* Notes and content have me at a little over 5k right now. Looks like I'll finish this year.