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New York was fun. There were a myriad of things to see and do. Catching what I could was exhausting without even realizing it until the train ride home. AndrewFashion was a great tour guide and often kept up better than I did.

I was surprised that, though it shows it's age, New York was surprisingly clean. Watching Night Court repeatedly had formed a harsh opinion that is best summarized in part 3 of Danny Got His Gun when Dan Fielding answers Kista's question, “Are the people nice there?” by saying, “Sure. Just don't make eye contact.” Yet I didn't find this the case when exposed to much humanity in the subways or on the streets downtown.

Yet for all it has to offer and how accessible it is, it still has the pall of the big city. The reliance on public transport can be frustrating. It's big to the point of being overwhelming and impersonal. And I started to see what Ed Shepp described as being “hard” about making a living there. Moving there would have been a mistake. While it definitely suits Nic's persona I am saddened to think how it's going to change AF. Yet that's not my concern.

The hardest part for me was how AF has moved on emotionally along with physically. I caught glimpses of it before he left yet it was more clear now that he's settled. Having to grieve the loss of intimate connection for yet another special man is always fun. Was pretty torturous containing feelings once reciprocated by the man you're sleeping next to. Wanting to reach out… hold, touch, caress. Yet when you do, even fleetingly, it's met with tolerance instead of pleasure. Words are quite incapable of describing this pain.

Will that stop me? Of course not. I hadn't planned on doing Nano this year because I know the expansion will consume me when it's released in the middle of the month. Yet I seem to have a lot of writing to do all of a sudden. *smirk* Notes and content have me at a little over 5k right now. Looks like I'll finish this year.

Been a While

Tim gave me a ride into work this morning—sorta novel. The plan is to sneak out a little early then he's going to pick me up. Hopefully we'll beat the weekend rush hour traffic; with so many people living across the border, it gets wild.

So we pull up to the front of my building and I lean in for a kiss when my boss walks right in front of the car. I laughed then said, “Oh look, my boss.” Tim wished me a good day at work after another quick peck.

My boss was holding the door open and said, “So… getting rides into work now, eh?” I was actually blushing, which he enjoyed pointing out. “Did you think I would be surprised?” he asked as we walked back into the department. Was hard to explain what I was feeling. Whatever it was, it did feel nice.

Skin Deep

Very few people can scoop me when it comes to Star Trek news, but Adam has a few times. Being adorable makes it hard to resent him for it. Anyway. I like the fact that I have no idea who Chris Pine is, the guy just casted for Kirk. Hell, I only know two of the primary actors. Will be fresh, new, and all that. My biggest concern so far is that all the cast is hot. Really hot. Eric Bana, Karl Urban, Zachary Quinto, Simon Pegg, John Cho, Zoe Saldana. Even that Anton Yelchin kid is cute. Stupid Hollywood.